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Sunday, January 2, 2011

cheers @ 1:10 AM

Cheers to 2010, a year of joy, sorrow, frustration, love and memories. One of the best years by far for me. I grew, learned and became a better woman by the end of the race. It was a slow start but I think I ended it with a bang. It takes a while to truly learn who your real friends are and who to trust. I learned that recently. I became closer with people I’ve never imaged I could talk to, and began creating new relationships. It goes to show, true friends and family are there with you to the end. So thank you to everyone who’s been there with me through it all, 2010 was a rollercoaster. So let’s made 2011 an explosion of wonder. Live it up each and every day. Don’t let anyone or anything hold you down. Be yourself and live your life, we only have one to live so make this next year worth living for. I know I have some New Year’s Resolutions I want to stick with too. But at the end of the day I want to be happy with my life. Make each day magical and worth living.

So now let’s Cheers to the end of a new beginning.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

jingle bells @ 5:11 PM

My Christmas tree still grows
In the forest 'neath the sky
Branches bowed with decorations
Unseen by the naked eye
The kinds of ornaments
You can't buy in any store
Made from recollections
From Christmases of yore
Nights spent until wee hours
Putting those toys together
Going out late for batteries
Into the wintry weather
The flushed, excited faces
The wide eyes filled with glee
Some old memories of those times
When that excited child was me
Friends and family dropping by
With loads of Christmas cheer
When leaving, shouting wishes
To wish, a "Happy New Year"
Some memories of quiet eves
In front of a cracklin' fire
A hot toddy, maybe two
Before this Santa'd retire
But friends and family move
And some may really go away
But they've a place in my heart
Christmas Eve and Christmas day
For now those kids of yesteryear
They suddenly are grown
They find mates, get married
Have families of their own
Those Christmas decorations
Need not sparkle and shine
For memories bring a beauty
Of a very special kind

[Del]

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night, I hope you night was filled with magic and delight. Christmas is a time to have fun with your loved one. To loses up and just relax. I know this Christmas I had a great time. I was surrounded by everyone I care about. And at the end of the day it’s really not about what you get under the tree, it’s the feeling you get from giving. I know it sounds typical but it’s true, you're only really happy when the others around you are too. So this Christmas go have a good time, whatever your good time is. Gather around the fire place and sing some Christmas carols or warm up to a Holiday Classic. But just remember to be nice this coming year, because Santa is still watching!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Move Along @ 10:34 PM

Exam time is slowing creeping up. Actually, it’s right around the corner. One week to be exact.

This next month will probably be the worst days of my life, I don’t even think I can enjoy my winter vacation because of all the work I have left to do. Do I have to do this work on my break? No. But if I did it, then I wouldn’t be behind on my work.

I went into the Acting Academy knowing the work load, but now that I’m experiencing it, boy am I depressed. Not a bad depressed and not a good depressed, somewhere in the middle. The worst part about all of this is that I can’t even enjoy my winter break. I’m running around stressed about how much work I have to get done and I’m not even doing it. I try to have fun and go out, but it’s always on the back o my mind, which isn’t good. I actually want to enjoy my vacation.

I don’t want to have to be thinking about homework. We’re only a kid once so live it up....unfortunately having fun won’t get you into university. Which I still have to apply for this winter break. As if I didn’t have enough to balance on my plate already, now the big university applications are slowly creeping in. Sometimes I feel like giving up to be honest. I have those days where I just lose it and think to myself, is it all really worth it? And then I think about my future and what I want to become and where I want to go. I can’t give all of that up. Life's hard and that’s the fact. I just need to handle it the best I can. I need to push myself and shoot for the stars. I always keep in mind to keep moving forward, the motto that keeps me going.

Help? @ 10:15 PM

Casting calls, auditions, cold calls is a part of an actor’s life.

Being a part of the Acting Academy, of course we'd have a lot of these to do. In order to pass that section I needed two casting calls and one seeking representation. The casting calls were a breeze and let’s just say actually getting to the agency was a mission within itself.

First off I had to get up at six in the morning; I am not a morning person. I was half alive by the time I even reached the Go Station. On top of that, as soon as we reached Toronto, not long after, we realized we were going in the wrong direction. Epic Fail. As if that wasn't bad enough, after finally catching a bus, we realized we headed the opposite direction of where we were supposed to be. So this goes to show that juts being book smart will only get you so far in life. But the day wasn’t all so bad, let’s just say we met some great people along the way. They all helped us reach our final destination. So the big city isn't so big and bad after all, they're filled with kind hearted people. It takes a while, but once you see them, it’s a moment worth cherishing. And I’m not the type of person who forgets people that easily. They helped me, so I hope I can help them too someday.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Lighthouse @ 4:42 PM

It’s funny how you're in a miserable mood one moment, and then smiling the next.

Bad days happen to just about everyone. I can’t honestly say that I don't have bad days, I have bad weeks. It’s a whole week where just about nothing goes right and I end up with a giant frown on my face. It a part of life and sometimes you just need to move on. It’s the Christmas season and instead of being happy, people get a lot crankier. Unfortunately I was a part of the cranky percentage. Just yesterday I went Christmas shopping for my family and nothing was right. I couldn't find the perfect present, I couldn't find the store I wanted, and the mall was about to close and to top it all off, my jacket was giving me a heat stroke.

With all of those things circling around in my head, I started thinking about how much work I still had to get done, before the end of the break. I'm the type of person who has way too much going on in her head. I'm constantly concentrating on too many things as once, which doesn't help. So along with this new added stress I had just about enough and stood in the mall. I tried to calm myself down, but then a miracle happened. A little miracle that was like the lighthouse in my dark moment. I looked up and saw a little baby sitting in his stroller, so I smiled at him. He smiled back and his smile was so pure and innocent that it made me forget everything. I felt light again and I realized what was I fussing so much about? If a little baby’s smile could turn my frown upside down, imagine the possibilities.

This Christmas season, open the door for someone, say thank you, or even wish them a Happy Holiday because you never know, you might be that lighthouse on someone’s dark day.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Used @ 4:04 PM

One of the hardest things do ever do, hands down, is to say those three small yet huge words.

I love you.

In my opinion this phrased has loosed its touch along the years and has been degraded down to almost nothingness. It’s almost sad to say so but it’s the cold hard truth about life. I remember in the past when people used to actually say this and mean it. But now when you look around you it’s said so casually that it’s not worth anything.

It’s just another one of those things you say to people everyday just like you say “hello”, it’s become a routine for many and for me that’s not how things are supposed or should be.

I love you, should never be spoken unless it is a true genuine feeling from the heart, it should come from within you, and always mean so much more than can be expressed.

Sometimes saying I love you isn’t enough, and saying it from the heart nowadays only scares people even more when in fact it should be respected, because to say something so powerful and strong, takes a lot of courage and strength. These words also shouldn’t just be thrown out at any moment, because it’s just lessening the meaning even more. I know how that feels, to tell someone how much you like them, and trust me, for me it was extremely hard. I would have rather been scuba diving with killer sharks then telling anyone my feelings. I just wish there were more guys and girls out there, who would understand the feelings of others and give them a chance.

Love has its own unique way of finding its way into our heart, but it just doesn’t mean as much as it used too.